For that reason I was most comfortable with the company of Southerners. It is easy to see the beginnings of things, and harder to see the ends.
Self-respect is important, and must be sought after actively. My opinion is that they don't stifle enough of them. So after a two-year hiatus I went back to school, where I studied whatever interested me — geology, drawing, French novels, Russian history, Italian neo-realist movies, anything but creative writing.
What's worst of all by far, though, is that her characters are not even well-read enough to answer a bunch of inane questions. And then, the gutpunch realization that I owed the gods 20 miles but home was just over 19 from where I started.
And did I hear Dedalus? As it turned out, college and journalism figured largely in the solution. I no longer want reminders of what was, what got broken, what got lost, what got wasted. When life presents her with a question, she writes to find the answer.
Some years passed, but I still did not lose that sense of wonder about New York. In the last twenty years the colleges have been emphasizing creative writing to such an extent that you almost feel that any idiot with a nickel's worth of talent can emerge from a writing class able to write a competent story.
I no longer had any interest in hearing about the advances other people had received from their publishers, about plays which were having second-act trouble in Philadelphia, or about people I would like very much if only I would come out and meet them.
I could not tell you when I began to understand that. There were barrels of crab boil in a Czech place in the Eighties where I once shopped. Grizzard had a lucrative side career as a lecturer and stand-up comic, and I remember being sent to cover one of his performances at Duke University in Durham, North Carolina.
A period during which I believed that I could keep people fully present, keep them with me, by preserving their mementos, their "things," their totems.
In fact I no longer value this kind of memento. It made me realize that since college couldn't teach me how to write, I would have to teach myself. We look for the sermon in the suicide, for the social or moral lesson in the murder of five. It is often said that New York is a city for only the very rich and the very poor.
I could make promises to myself and to other people and there would be all the time in the world to keep them. It is easy to see the beginnings of things, and harder to see the ends. Which meant I needed to get a college degree. And except on a certain kind of winter evening—six-thirty in the Seventies, say, already dark and bitter with a wind off the river, when I would be walking very fast toward a bus and would look in the bright windows of brownstones and see cooks working in clean kitchens and and imagine women lighting candles on the floor above and beautiful children being bathed on the floor above that—except on nights like those, I never felt poor; I had the feeling that if I needed money I could always get it.
She was still very young though, thinking possibly for months that the Triborough Bridge was the Brooklyn Bridge, even though they look nothing alike. I could taste the peach and feel the soft air blowing from a subway grating on my legs and I could smell lilac and garbage and expensive perfume and I knew that it would cost something sooner or later—because I did not belong there, did not come from there—but when you are twenty-two or twenty-three, you figure that later you will have a high emotional balance, and be able to pay whatever it costs.
Rather, as the un-credentialled, or rather press-credentialled, example of the high school graduate Hemingway makes clear, the key supplementary institution for the novel until mid-century was journalism. How many miles to Babylon?Image by David Shankbone, via Wikimedia Commons.
In a classic essay of Joan Didion’s, “Goodbye to All That,” the novelist and writer breaks into her narrative—not.
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